To Grandmother’s House We Go (8/17/2018)

Since Arabella showed she could go with our travel flow, we decided to up the stakes and add Baxter to our cohort. This weekend is the Orlando Family reunion back in PA— and when your daughter is the guest of honor, you show up. (We show up no matter what, but I love the invite and wanted to share a photo of it).

I had everything ready to go when Jarmon got home from work and was feeling extremely proud to have packed ten day’s worth of provisions for me, Baxter and Arabella into a single suitcase. I’m a habitual over packer, so this was a very big deal. We condensed significantly since vacation where Arabella had her own large suitcase (bigger than mine, actually). I was beginning to look at Uber options on my phone when I looked over and saw something white spilling out of Arabella’s mouth. Spit up. Impeccably timed. And this was not one of those spit up situations from which one can recovery easily— this was a stop what you’re doing because you are going to be cleaning for a while spit up situation. Pretty sure it was the entire contents of the bottle she had just consumed— and she wasn’t happy about it. Poor thing. I got Arabella changed into new travel PJ’s while Jarmon moved the spit-up covered Dock-A-Tot cover to the laundry tub. It will be so special to have that mess waiting when we get home— I can hardly wait.

Luckily the unfortunate start to our trip did not define the rest of it. We fit everything into one normal sized cab (we were pretty concerned about this since we were going to have to fit into DD’s normal sized car on the other end) and made our way to the airport. Curbside check in was much easier than going inside— and checking the car seat with our luggage was much easier than taking it to the gate. (DD convinced us to leave our stroller at home). When we got close to the gate, we decided to divide and conquer. I took Baxter and went to the restroom while Jarmon took Arabella and got us dinner. Ten minutes later we had set up camp around a single open chair and were eating tacos at the gate. Multiple people made observations about our flying with a baby AND a dog. There were various iterations: “You’ve got your hands full!” “You two are so brave!” “They’re both so cute!” “They’re both so well behaved!” We of course soaked up the compliments, but I’m not naive enough to overlook the obvious mental note they all were making— “These people are crazy. Pick a seat as far away as possible!”

We got on the plane like pros (I’d actually like to think anyone watching was impressed) and a very nice lady who seemed genuinely excited by Arabella and Baxter’s presence sat in the row with us. Baxter, per usual, didn’t make a peep. Arabella fell asleep before we even took off. They were so peaceful— Jarmon got to read a book and snooze for a few minutes. I was poised to order a glass of wine, but sadly turbulence grounded that idea.

DD picked us up at PIT And everything fit comfortably in his car. Not gonna lie, I loved every second of seeing Arabella in the Pittsburgh Airport. I have so many good memories of riding the tram and people movers as a kid that I of course had to document her first rides on them. Sadly, they’ll both be gone (victims of the dreaded airport modernization project) before she’s old enough to remember them. Jarmon was showing Arabella the giant dinosaur next to the escalators when a kind lady traveling to Kansas City asked if we wanted a family photo— we were thrilled.

I drove home and we made great time. MJ had a late-night Delallo’s feast waiting. She also made us homemade French fries.

My parents were beyond excited to have Arabella at their house for the first time. But it was a solid four hours past the late end of Arabella’s bedtime window and she was cranky. But you know what else? We’re at “The Grandparents’ House” and it’s not my problem. Jarmon and I settled into my childhood room which mercifully has gotten a new mattress since we last visited. Baxter meanwhile went to bed wondering why he had been in the house for two hours and still hadn’t gotten a new toy. He’s most certainly dreaming that the attention he’s grown accustomed to in PA will return in the morning.

Not so reluctantly… asking for help! (8/16/2018)

My vision for this blog is two-fold. Selfishly, I want to document my adventures with Arabella so I can look back at them later, but I also hope it can be a place to share things others might relate to. To that extent, I’ve had so much fun the last few days hearing from old friends who reached out after reading my first few posts. People who have had similar experiences sharing laughs– others offering advice. One friend, whose opinion I respect, shared an observation. She told me that the title of my blog made it seem like I didn’t want to be a mom– and that it might be offensive to others who had struggled (or were struggling) with fertility. I admittedly never thought about it like that, so I was very glad for her input. I’ve met with enough TV consultants over the years to know that if one person takes the time to tell you something there are at least ten others who are thinking it. (As it turns out, one of those ten was my husband!) So, if you were offended by the title of my blog– I apologize. Attempts at being clever don’t always translate in a digital world.

To be honest, I’ve always wanted a family, but I’ve always been apprehensive about my ability to be a mother. I’m not maternal. I’m not nurturing. And I’ve never been one of those people who was naturally good with kids. Heck, I got fired from a baby sitting job because the kids told their mom they hated me! (To be fair, I wasn’t crazy about them either.).

Anyway- A few years ago, I read Love With A Chance Of Drowning by Torre DeRoche. It’s about a girl (DeRoche) who meets a guy and goes on a huge sailing trip– despite being petrified of water. DeRoche describes herself as a “fearful adventurer” because she desperately wants to be adventurous even though the act of being adventurous terrifies her. The message really resonated with me then– and still does now. So, that’s where The Reluctant Mom came from. I’ve always wanted to be a mom even though the actual act of being a mom terrifies me. BUT, as I’ve also learned over the years, perception is more important than reality… so I’m in the market for a new blog title. Got an idea? Send it my way.

Also, if you are looking for a good read to end the summer, I highly recommend DeRoche’s book. It’s honest, funny and will leave you feeling inspired to go on an adventure.

Houston, We have a Problem (8/15/2018)

Houston, We have a Problem (8/15/2018)

I like to think I have a pretty cute dog. I also like to think I have a pretty cute kid. But I can say with absolute confidence that they would both be even cuter if they liked each other.

When we were preparing for Arabella’s arrival, we hoarded tips from dog-owning friends on how to introduce her to Baxter. We knew Baxter had only child syndrome as evidenced in this pic, one of our last snuggle sessions before Arabella was born:

We thought we did everything right. We sent the receiving blanket home on day one… and every day after (if anyone from the hospital was paying attention, they were probably starting to think we didn’t own any blankets). He seemed to take well to them.

When it was time to go home, I took Arabella in last and acted like nothing was amiss. It was admittedly not the adorable love-filled introduction we had envisioned. Baxter greeted his sister with indifference— then began barking at her carrier as if a stray animal had stowed away in it and hitched a ride into our home. Taking our first family photo- all on the same couch- was a struggle.

In the weeks that followed, he warmed up. He realized that Arabella tasted good— and didn’t mind when he licked her. When she cried, he would bark to let us know. Cute, right? We even got them close enough to get some adorable photos in an adorable “My Big Brother Baxter Wags His Tail” onesie purchased for us by a friend.

Well, apparently the jealousy (hatred?) didn’t diminish quite as much as we thought. We’ve been trying to get them to touch, so Baxter won’t lose his mind when Arabella starts crawling. Enter problem.

The first few times he was tolerant. But the other day? He snapped at her. Back to treating her like a dog in passing on the street. Ugh!

I didn’t think much of it— assuming he was just tired— but today, it happened again. (I should point out he’s not actually touching her when he snaps, so there’s no safety concern… he’s just being antisocial like he tends to be with other dogs).

So yeah… Brooks Baby #1 (Baxter)… officially hates Brooks Baby #2 (Arabella). To Arabella’s credit, she is oblivious and sits there smiling when he nips at her. I think today she may have actually laughed. Oye. I feel like there is potential for this situation to right itself when Arabella begins eating real food that will inevitably end up in Baxter’s belly more than her own. And even more potential when she develops the ability to play fetch. (Baxter is a shameless opportunist). But until then, I guess I’ll be playing mommy in the middle like I did today. This photo was taken shortly after the nipping incident:

Left arm around one baby… right arm around the other. If you have tips on how to get a spoiled puppy to like a new baby, I’d love to hear them! Share in the comments or shoot me a note.

What’s Old is New Again (8/15/2018)

What’s Old is New Again (8/15/2018)

When it comes to vacation, there are two schools of thought. You can go someplace new and exciting each year, or you can go to a place that is comfortable and familiar. I am all about visiting new places, but there is something undeniably appealing about visiting the same place. For example, if you are in a new place you feel compelled to be a tourist. You spend half of your time visiting new places and seeing new things. You feel pressure to do these things because you aren’t sure if or when you are coming back. It’s like that with restaurants too. You spend your days researching where to eat– never quite knowing what you are in for at the table. None of this is bad, but when I am on vacation I want to relax. If you visit the same place each year there is no pressure to be a tourist because you’ve already done it all. The destination is your home away from home. Not only is there not much new to see or do, but you’ve also probably eaten at many of the restaurants too. Thus, you spend your time relaxing instead of researching dinner. Another advantage of having a home away from home is the unavoidable nostalgia.

My family has been vacationing in Ft Lauderdale for as long as I can remember– and staying at the same hotel. First it was the Yankee Clipper, then the Sheraton Yankee Clipper and now it’s the B Ocean. We have long since outgrown the hotel, but keep going back to create new memories. Since this was Arabella’s first time in Ft Lauderdale, I thought it would be cool to recreate some photos from my own childhood trips to Ft Lauderdale. And not going to lie, it was every bit as fun as I imagined!

Mother/daughter matching shirts on the beach:

Poolside glamour shots (more glamorous 30 years ago, ha!):

Hanging in the pool:

And of course, my favorite, Wreck Bar photos:

Do you have any nostalgic vacation photos from your own family trips? I’d love to see them!

The Kids Aren’t Alright (8/13/2018)

Today we returned to the grind. Or at least, our current grind. Jarmon went to work and I tried to get back to my maternity leave to do list. I say “tried” because Arabella and Baxter weren’t having it.

They may look innocent and content here, but they both spent the better part of the day suffering from serious vacation withdrawal. (A condition to which I can relate.)

Baxter, who is in love with his new dog sitter, couldn’t understand why he was home. He spent the day moping in various parts of the house and begging to play fetch.

Arabella, meanwhile, was struggling to understand why she wasn’t being held 24/7– a problem she has each time she is separated from her grandparents. She spent the day being generally miserable– alternately trying to destroy her Fluffy Chick book and her ocean play gym.

Here’s hoping the discontent is short lived!

The Best Part of Vacation Happens Long Before You Arrive (8/12/2018)

I’ve always thought that looking forward to vacation was the best part. Sound crazy? Hear me out here. Once you get there is great, but the time flies. It’s the sweet anticipation that fills me with happiness for weeks on end. Unfortunately, those weeks of bliss come to a crashing halt on the dreaded day AFTER vacation. The dreams of pools and daiquiris are replaced by not so dreamy baskets of laundry. For me, the reality was extra harsh this year because it meant doing real laundry for the first time in months. When I say “real laundry” I mean the kind you sort into loads by color and ability to go in the dryer. You see, since about March— and certainly since April 25— I’ve been wearing nothing but leggings, t-shirts and the occasional t-shirt dress. All items that go in a single load and are easily moved from the washer to the dryer. I put most of my pre-baby summer clothes in storage because I was convinced they wouldn’t fit post-baby (totally not the case) and after Arabella arrived, sleeping, pumping and well, just surviving, took precedence over shopping. But alas, oversized sweats don’t cut it at the beach so I bought a few pieces during a splurge at Target (crazy town, I know). It feels good to be back (in normal clothes, that is), but dang it’s nice wearing nothing but stretchy black and gray yoga gear. Don’t ever let anyone tell you otherwise. You don’t realize how much time you spend doing laundry until you stop. Sometimes that time is better spent elsewhere– and that’s OK.

Vacation Day 8 (8/11/2018): Until Next Time…

Vacation Day 8 (8/11/2018): Until Next Time…

All good things must come to an end. Today was the last day of Arabella’s first vacation. We started the day out with breakfast at the Naked Crab (brave yes, but a manager Jarmon and I befriended gave us free breakfast vouchers so we gave it a go). Jarmon, DD and I had the buffet— mom had some pastries. Nothing to write home about, but it wasn’t raw or served on salt which made for a marked improvement.

Jarmon and I made our way back to the room to pack while DD and MJ went to the beach with Arabella. They got a cabana in the sand, so Arabella would have shade– the pool was a bit chaotic since it was Saturday. Jarmon and I moved our bags to DD and MJ’s room and headed to the beach. It was Arabella’s first time in the sand. It was also her first time in the ocean. When we went to dip her feet, Jarmon got a Charlie horse in his leg and almost dropped her in the water– almost. Her reaction to both sand and sea was about the same as the pool— unimpressed.

Jarmon, DD and I spent some quality time in the pool but had to cut it short because of the approaching weather situation. We then began scurrying around the property taking all of the last minute photos I had been scheming over the previous week. These were mainly recreations of childhood photos that I’ll share in a later post. One of the many joys of vacationing in the same place year after year.

We also had to hurry and take our annual Wreck Bar photos. I don’t care how old I get, these will never get old. And now that I have a scuba diving husband, we can get creative with the photos. The ability to shoot endless erasable images on a digital camera helps too in the quest for the perfect photo.

When the rain finally chased us inside, we sat in the lobby and had beers while we swapped vacation photos. Then it was up to DD and MJ’s room to shower and head to the airport.

I had one last vacation mission to complete– buying Arabella a stuffed animal at the airport. We picked out a flamingo and named it Phillip. She played with Phillip the whole way home.

Vacation Day 7 (8/10/2018): Happy Birthday Daddy Don

Vacation Day 7 (8/10/2018): Happy Birthday Daddy Don

My least favorite part of vacation isn’t leaving– by that point I’ve properly mourned and accepted my departure. My least favorite part of vacation is the day prior to departure when home and the real world suddenly loom before me. Not only am I sad about leaving, but I also have to watch happy and excited arrivals. Don’t get me wrong- thrilled and happy for those people, just wish I was arriving again too.

Last night Arabella spent her first night away from us (except for that night at the hospital when we were sleep-deprived and sent her to the nursery, ha!). She slept like a champ for DD and MJ– until 9:30am. I’m pretty sure MJ was disappointed about it. Jarmon and I slept in too. We met DD and MJ for coffee at about 11am.

The pool weather wasn’t great today. We had a big storm at about 1– then another at about 5. We ran inside for the 1p storm. At 5, we decided to call it a day. I watched the storm for a bit from the hallway window.

We took Arabella in the water again. She is coming around. We also had a bit of a poop situation in one of the swimsuits with a diaper attached that required a wardrobe change.

For lunch I had French fries- surprise surprise. Jarmon had a chicken sandwich. DD had a fish sandwich. MJ had a hot dog.

Tonight we went to Shooters for DD’s birthday. We started with a seafood tower that was the most amazing Jarmon or I had ever seen… and we’ve had our fair share of towers. Lobster, king crab, shrimp and oysters… oh my! It was spectacular in every way. In fact, it was so large that DD canceled his entree. Jarmon had a pasta dish, MJ had ribs and I had a Szechuan shrimp salad- it was delicious. At the end of dinner the waitress brought a small piece of chocolate cake with a candle for dessert. Arabella must have known it was a celebration because she woke up and stayed awake for the party. It made DD’s night.. and also made for some more adorable photos.

We came back to the hotel and I began to pack up. I’m not one to pack before absolutely necessary, but traveling with a kid involves a bit more organization.

So tomorrow is our final day. Vacation always goes fast, but this one went even faster than usual. Tomorrow we will hopefully get in some pool time, take Arabella to the beach and take our annual Wreck Bar window photos. There was some more souvenir shopping I wanted to do, but doesn’t seem like that will happen. I guess what we have will have to do- my overcrowded house will thank me!

Vacation Day 6 (8/9/2018): Full On Vacation Mode

We just can’t seem to get moving in the morning. We met DD and MJ in the lobby sometime after 11 for coffee then headed to the pool. We got a cabana again, which is proving to be the best way for Arabella to enjoy the pool- kid has good taste! She seems to be getting a little more used to the heat, but also enjoys breaks with MJ who takes her into the hallway of the beach building. They sit on the chairs near the front entrance.

MJ and DD had left over Bimini bread from Aruba for breakfast and leftover pizza for lunch. Jarmon and I had coffee by the pool. I had a huge white chocolate macadamia nut cookie for breakfast- I haven’t been able to shake my pregnancy sweet tooth! Jarmon had fish tacos for lunch. It was our last day with our favorite server, Keny, so we of course took a photo.

We took Arabella in the pool again late afternoon. Olivia was there when we went in. Hopefully Arabella will enjoy the water as much as Olivia by next summer. Olivia’s mom took some photos of all of us together. We tried pushing Arabella around the pool in her raft. She didn’t hate it, but not sure that she loved it either. DD sprinkled water on her, which she seemed to like. Earlier in the day DD let her lick an ice cube in his hand, which she loved.

We made our way upstairs to get ready for dinner- 15th St Fisheries tonight. DD, Jarmon and I shared some mussels to start. DD and I both had fried shrimp with tropical coleslaw. The coleslaw was interesting. It had red peppers and mandarin oranges in it. DD also had some clam chowder. (Fun fact: I had my first clam chowder ever at 15th Street a few years ago). Mom wanted a French dip but they were out so she got a chicken sandwich instead. Jarmon got a tasting menu from the dining room- a Caesar salad (made with baby spinach and roasted red peppers- delicious!), a seafood pasta dish and a brownie. I ordered the most delicious fried cheesecake bites for desert. Arabella slept the entire time. She got so many compliments- including the most adorable little girl who came up to admire her and a woman who was pregnant and having a little girl of her own in just six weeks. All of this happening with phenomenal live music in the background. It was a great night.

When we got back to the hotel I ordered a glass of the wine I enjoyed at Naked Crab. Sadly, it had been open too long and wasn’t as good as I remembered. Jarmon went upstairs to grab the bassinet and we sent Arabella to spend the night with my parents. Her first night away from us… which didn’t phase us. Does that make us bad parents? I hope not. Chill parents? Obviously… but we already knew that. We ended up hanging out with the pool supervisor- Ellior- for a little while. He’s leaving in two weeks for The W up the beach. Said our favorite waiter, Marco, is leaving too. He bought us drinks and gave us breakfast passes for the morning to make up for our dreadful meal at the Naked Crab.

Oh- and how could I forget- we named Arabella’s turtle! Tulip. Because she has a flower on her and, hey, alliteration.

It was a good second to last full day at the beach. We are all starting to get crabby at the thought of having to leave.

Vacation Day 5 (8/8/2018): My Name is Trina and I have a T-Shirt Problem

Vacation Day 5 (8/8/2018): My Name is Trina and I have a T-Shirt Problem

I have a confession. I have an addiction to t-shirts. Specifically, vacation shirts. It doesn’t matter how many times I visit a place I will buy a shirt every single time. Wearing them makes me happy. And why deny myself that simple pleasure? Well, because I travel a lot and have no room for the shirts. And after tonight Arabella’s closet is headed in the same direction. Tonight, she got her first (three) vacation shirts. To be fair, they were buy one get one free and MJ bought the third. Don’t judge. I also got an obnoxious neon orange shirt for myself (much to Jarmon’s chagrin) and a t-shirt like Arabella’s. Because matching shirt photos… duh!

The t-shirt shopping came after dinner at Aruba. We had an amazing meal. So good it almost made us forget last night’s dinner disaster. We had smoked fish dip, bacon wrapped scallops and Bimini bread for apps. DD has lobster bisque and shrimp cocktail. MJ had a Caesar salad and pizza. Jarmon had lobster bisque and the swordfish special. I had my old faithful— blackened salmon on a Greek salad. All amazing. Afterward, we had ice cream at Kilwin’s. MJ and I got toasted coconut. Jarmon got a milkshake.

Outside, DD made small talk with some people from Chicago. Turns out the daughter goes to DePaul. She was admiring Arabella and joked that she babysits. Five minutes later I went back and asked for her number. Be careful what you offer, right?!

I also made the fam pose for some beach photos on DD’s good camera. I’m not sure when I replaced DD as the annoying one with photos, but the transition has definitely taken place. Then again, when they turn out as good as they did– are they really all that annoying?